Wow I wish you all lived near me. You are incredible. Strange things happen sometimes. I found an article I wrote on bereavement years ago. I had forgotten about it. It was published in a magazine! Found it when looking for tax book.
Will go back to my own GP this week PG and he will get me on track. The locum was brilliant and he tried his best. He wasn't to know about the " cowboy" outfit who were involved with T. Just ticking boxes and useless. Doctors trying to contact them when T was in hospital with no success. Now I know that psy care in my area is useless. I would not take a sick mouse near them!!
Am now rambling. I have pondered and pondered............ I know I have been upset about people who are not there for me anymore. Calling an odd time to some but no joy.i can sense atmosphere like a magnet!! Tough. Wishing that nice things would happen.
Have decided that I need to face my reality. My lifelong partner has died. I just know that he is happy now and wouldn't want me to be so devastated so here goes with my plan of action........ Comments, advice welcome.
App with GP. Acceptance of my anxiety and depression. Discuss wit doc on what meds will help me. Am not scared of taking meds. I take them for a psysical reason so will take them for my mind too.
Accept that I am now on my own and stop tormenting myself wishing for the impossible. For whatever reason people have hurt me. Not intentially I am sure but flip it I am tired making excuses, allowances for other people. Rant, rant.....
Listen to my own body and mind and take my time.
I have two good friends who visit every so often. Another one who takes good care of me too. It's just that I am a stubborn mule who finds if difficult to shout help. I can't be tormenting people every day. Yes stupid I know cos if anyone needed my help I would be there in a heartbeat. Then you, my TP friends, what can I say?
Sending you all blessing, love and most of all hope.
Aisling xx