its been a real struggle today the closer it gets to christmas the harder it gets,i was in a supermarket and they were playing christmas tunes as soon as silent night came on ,one of me and mums favourite it was all i could do to hold it together,im dreading christmas,my brother keeps asking me to spend christmas day with them,i just want to be here in mine and mums home with my memorys i know people are being kind but i wish they would stop asking me i feel like just disapearing for a few days where i cant be contacted ,christmas was a really special time for me and mum even with the dementia i made it special for her,now its never going to be the same again