I'm so sorry. I lost my mum 5 days ago and feel your pain. I feel devastated of course but the thought that mum is now free from this terrible illness brings some comfort - for a while. I wonder if this is of any help to you. I too wonder what my role will be now. I'm an only child with no family of my own and am grateful for the support of friends now. I think it's too eart yet to contemplate the future just no you are not alone xxits just over a week since i lost my mum who was my world,i had cared for her for nearly 10 years with dementia with little or no help,in the daytime i keep really busy but night time i find it so hard,i am on my own and find myself going to bed early,i do have friends and a brother but prefer to stay here in my house where i spent over 50 years with mum,im totally heartbroken and miss her so much and cant see my life getting any better,its so quiet here