Had a really tough fortnight .. Am feeling drained ... Over the last few weeks have been introducing carers to come in ... Working up to being able to take our daughter away for a weeks holiday during the summer ( now too difficult for Allan to join us as the change is disorientating.)
All was going well and I thank goodness it was - as a week ago I had a call from my sisters care flats to say she had been rushed to hospital ... My sister is 51 and has Downes but lives a full and independent life with support from staff where she lives. I guessed it was serious .... Phoned the care agency and asked them to arrange emergency cover for Allan. When I got to the hospital I was told my sister had a bleed on he brain and a serious stroke and there was nothing anyone could do and whilst she was breathing independently the prognosis wasn't good and they wouldn't resiscitate. The agency looking after Allan were great and arranged live in carers to stay with him so I could be with my sister. My daughter was picked up be a friend who looked after her.
I sat up the night with my sister in hospital -Had a break for a couple of hours before returning to the hospital but her condition worsened and she died that afternoon. It was so sudden and unexpected....I spent most of last week in crisis trying to manage family / home, funeral arrangements tiredness and grief as well as coping with Allan ( who seemed also to have picked up an infection and was really poorly - single handed.
6 days after my sisters death and having not seen sight or sound of Allan's grown up children ( who knew the situation) I rang one of them and understandably i lost it on the phone ..... I must have hit a nerve as they have both rallied ... I feel awful about some of what I said and probably shouldn't have said it ... Or perhaps it was the other way around and I shouldn't have had cause to say it.... The upshot is that they both attended my sisters funeral in place of their father ( I had carers to look after Allan for the day as he really didn't understand what would be going on). It was a lovely funeral and a real celebration of my sisters life but it hasn't sunk in. The following day after the funeral I packed bags for daughter and I to get away on our holiday and Allan's live in carer arrived ....just in time as think I was heading for a breakdown... Son and daughter have been going in daily to check Allan and the carer are ok.. And so far so good.... I'm starting to relax and my daughter is having a nice time away at the seaside although I still feel very sad inside....- but relieved I got the funeral concluded before we went away. I'm trying not to let it spoil her much awaited time away. I'm also very sad Allan is not able to be with us ... It's our first holiday without him and I realise physically as well as mentally how much the last 18 months has seen him decline ... It's so sad and lonely and I would love him to be here. I'm sitting at dinner tonight with tears pouring down my face ... All emotions mixed up together... I'm so thankful to the agency I chose ... They have been brilliant in sourcing not only a wonderful live in carer but for helping me in an emergency - which was such a blessing .....
All was going well and I thank goodness it was - as a week ago I had a call from my sisters care flats to say she had been rushed to hospital ... My sister is 51 and has Downes but lives a full and independent life with support from staff where she lives. I guessed it was serious .... Phoned the care agency and asked them to arrange emergency cover for Allan. When I got to the hospital I was told my sister had a bleed on he brain and a serious stroke and there was nothing anyone could do and whilst she was breathing independently the prognosis wasn't good and they wouldn't resiscitate. The agency looking after Allan were great and arranged live in carers to stay with him so I could be with my sister. My daughter was picked up be a friend who looked after her.
I sat up the night with my sister in hospital -Had a break for a couple of hours before returning to the hospital but her condition worsened and she died that afternoon. It was so sudden and unexpected....I spent most of last week in crisis trying to manage family / home, funeral arrangements tiredness and grief as well as coping with Allan ( who seemed also to have picked up an infection and was really poorly - single handed.
6 days after my sisters death and having not seen sight or sound of Allan's grown up children ( who knew the situation) I rang one of them and understandably i lost it on the phone ..... I must have hit a nerve as they have both rallied ... I feel awful about some of what I said and probably shouldn't have said it ... Or perhaps it was the other way around and I shouldn't have had cause to say it.... The upshot is that they both attended my sisters funeral in place of their father ( I had carers to look after Allan for the day as he really didn't understand what would be going on). It was a lovely funeral and a real celebration of my sisters life but it hasn't sunk in. The following day after the funeral I packed bags for daughter and I to get away on our holiday and Allan's live in carer arrived ....just in time as think I was heading for a breakdown... Son and daughter have been going in daily to check Allan and the carer are ok.. And so far so good.... I'm starting to relax and my daughter is having a nice time away at the seaside although I still feel very sad inside....- but relieved I got the funeral concluded before we went away. I'm trying not to let it spoil her much awaited time away. I'm also very sad Allan is not able to be with us ... It's our first holiday without him and I realise physically as well as mentally how much the last 18 months has seen him decline ... It's so sad and lonely and I would love him to be here. I'm sitting at dinner tonight with tears pouring down my face ... All emotions mixed up together... I'm so thankful to the agency I chose ... They have been brilliant in sourcing not only a wonderful live in carer but for helping me in an emergency - which was such a blessing .....