Morning Pevensey
Thank you for your response. Have had a mixed morning so far and it’s only 8.45. Hubby has had his abusive rant but won’t get washed although I did manage to shave him in spurts and he ate a banana. He has changed so much in the last week and the constant attention seeking is very wearing. I will push myself to accept the respite as I can feel that my empathy towards him is waning and that’s not good but this guilt thing is heart wrenching and he’s only got to be “nice” for a few hours and I wonder why I’m considering respite. But I guess I must (and will) do it. My hubby is so like yours. All sweetness and light in front of others but feels he can say or do what he likes to me. When I say “say” - he babbles with the odd coherent word it two.
I’m sure if I was put under hypnosis then I would say that I wanted him in a care home permanently now as 14 years has been a long time.
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Hi young at heart, sorrynI didnt get back to you sooner. You sound like your really struggling so please please do arrange the respite, you DEFINITLY DO NOT have to feel guilty, but you will feel relieved when you have done it and refreshed while OH is away, but whatever you do don't make the mistake that I've made and go to visit him everyday. Although I've cut it down now by having couple days off inbetween, on the advice of the carers at the care home, also someone on here said that by visiting too often its defeating the object of OH being in respite your not switched of from him. But with me it was the big G letter the guilt thing looming its head. Good luck young at heart, and when thentespite starts, relax, rest, and do all the things you want to do, Let me know how it all goes.