hi @Kikki21
special days are the ones that bring home our loss - even after years I still feel I want to celebrate with mum and then do a bit of a double take when I realise ... I treat myself instead as both mum and dad live on in me and they loved to treat me, and I send up a thankyou to them for all they did for me
I recognise the disconnect you mention - I felt as though I was walking through treacle, so much effort to keep moving and everything seemed to take ages so I lost my sense of time - grief has strange effects on each of us - be gentle with yourself
special days are the ones that bring home our loss - even after years I still feel I want to celebrate with mum and then do a bit of a double take when I realise ... I treat myself instead as both mum and dad live on in me and they loved to treat me, and I send up a thankyou to them for all they did for me
I recognise the disconnect you mention - I felt as though I was walking through treacle, so much effort to keep moving and everything seemed to take ages so I lost my sense of time - grief has strange effects on each of us - be gentle with yourself