Goodbye Mum

Kikki21

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Feb 27, 2016
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East Midlands
And so I find myself in this part of the forum.
I always had a bad feeling about my mum going into hospital this time.
Sadly I was right. Her final fight with dementia went on much longer than expected. She fought like a true champion.
She didn’t deserve this at all, no one does but I do take comfort in the fact that she passed peacefully. It feels weird, surreal, even spacey that it’s all happened.
 

lis66

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Aug 7, 2015
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So sorry kikki21 glad your mum is at peace ,you have been a wonderful daughter,hope you find strength in the comming days and weeks ahead thinking of you xxxx
 

Rolypoly

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Jan 15, 2018
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So sorry to hear about your mum. Yes you were expecting it but that doesn’t lessen the sadness you feel along with all the other emotions. I hope you take solace knowing your mum is out of pain and finally at peace. I know you haven’t found the dementia journey easy but, despite all the ups and downs, you have been there every step of the way and done all that you could. You have been a great daughter and you now need to take care of yourself.
 

Kikki21

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Feb 27, 2016
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East Midlands
Thank you so much for all the positive comments. I really struggled for the last few days with everything & all my emotions were just all over the place. I just could not understand why my mum was battling it all so hard & so many times I thought had we done the wrong thing but I knew that the final decline had started & the doctors agreed 100%.

She had already had several infections in a few months so dementia really took a grip on her.
I tried to make a positive out of a really sad day & took a thank you card, chocolates & biscuits to the nurses on my mum’s ward as they really were amazing.

Then we went for coffee & cake as this was one of the first things that my mum taught my fiancé about Polish people with their love of cake, something that he totally approved of! We raised our cups to toast my mum.
 

Kikki21

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Feb 27, 2016
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East Midlands
What a lovely thing to do. I raise my cup to your mum too.
Bless you thank you. It made me smile as we always bought cake for my mum when we visited her when she still lived at home, she started being rather partial to a egg custard tart. Her eating habits seemed to change at the care home & she seemed to eat several breakfasts & then not want much lunch or dinner.
 

Karen22

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Nov 3, 2012
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And so I find myself in this part of the forum.
I always had a bad feeling about my mum going into hospital this time.
Sadly I was right. Her final fight with dementia went on much longer than expected. She fought like a true champion.
She didn’t deserve this at all, no one does but I do take comfort in the fact that she passed peacefully. It feels weird, surreal, even spacey that it’s all happened.
So sorry to hear about your mum but take comfort that she is now out of pain and distress. You did everything you could. Take care of yourself.
Karen
 

Kikki21

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Feb 27, 2016
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East Midlands
Thank you lovely people. I have had so many messages from people today, it has been lovely to feel that love & support.
It also made me think that I need to buy myself some new clothes for the funeral so I look a bit more smart other than the comfy clothes I tend to wear! Big fan of leggings & a dress/tunic over them!
 

LadyA

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Oct 19, 2009
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Ireland
Ah, @Kikki21 , I'm so sorry for your loss. Your poor mum fought long and hard with her illness. No more suffering for her now, but knowing that doesn't lessen your own loss.
My condolences to you.
 

Kikki21

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Feb 27, 2016
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East Midlands
Ah, @Kikki21 , I'm so sorry for your loss. Your poor mum fought long and hard with her illness. No more suffering for her now, but knowing that doesn't lessen your own loss.
My condolences to you.
Thank you. It feels very strange at the moment. I had got into the habit of getting clothes out to wear just in case I needed to put something on in a hurry when I went to sleep &’now I don’t have to do that.
 

Grannie G

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I always had a bad feeling about my mum going into hospital this time.
These feelings are strange and so often accurate Kikki. I remember the first time my husband went into hospital with aspiration pneumonia I thought it was the beginning of the end.

We raised our cups to toast my mum.
What a lovely thing to do. So positive.

No more hospitals or struggles for your mum. She is now resting in peace.
 

Kikki21

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Feb 27, 2016
2,244
East Midlands
These feelings are strange and so often accurate Kikki. I remember the first time my husband went into hospital with aspiration pneumonia I thought it was the beginning of the end.



What a lovely thing to do. So positive.

No more hospitals or struggles for your mum. She is now resting in peace.
I had a lot of spiritual nudges so to speak. I said many goodbyes to my mum in the hospital. Basically every time I left her bedside. But the last time, I wanted to stay a little bit longer & I lingered a bit more because I knew it was the final one. I knew that my mum wanted to spare me being there when she passed. And so it was.
I have had so many messages, comments & phone calls of condolences, it has been lovely to have so much genuine support & love.

On a practical level, I need to ring the bereavement centre at the hospital today after 10am & make an appt & then start making funeral arrangements I guess. I also have an event tomorrow evening that I need to do & try & sort out my stock for that xx
 

Elle3

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Jun 30, 2016
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Welcome to this side of the forum, I still don't feel like I belong here. I don't think my dad's death has sunk in yet, I'm hoping after the funeral tomorrow I can rest. But I also worry if I don't keep busy it will give me more time to grieve.

Take care and again sorry for your loss. She fought a good battle and you did her proud.

Elle x
 

Pouli

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Feb 9, 2019
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My condolences, Kikki2. You mum is at peace and you did everything you could for her. Still, the emotional shock is great. Don't be surprised if you do weird things, or find you just can't do anything at all. I feel I'm in limbo because all the structure has gone from my days. sometimes I just want to sleep; others I'm flooded with anger over everything that happened to my lovely husband. Yesterday they collected all the equipment - the bed, walking frames etc. It seems so terribly final, as if I'm tidying him away. I didn't realise what a comfort it was until it had gone.
So be kind to yourself. You did your very best for your mom. Concentrate on that.
 

Kikki21

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Feb 27, 2016
2,244
East Midlands
Welcome to this side of the forum, I still don't feel like I belong here. I don't think my dad's death has sunk in yet, I'm hoping after the funeral tomorrow I can rest. But I also worry if I don't keep busy it will give me more time to grieve.

Take care and again sorry for your loss. She fought a good battle and you did her proud.

Elle x
I know what you mean @Elle3 it is awful when straightaway after someone passes that you are having to deal with all of the legal side of things & really your head is spinning.
I’ve just sat down for a bit to breathe before o get ready to go to the hospital to collect the certificate. I then have to go to her house for some documents & then onto the registrars in town for the legal bit.
I’ve contacted one funeral director to get a quote which was £3800! To be fair that was a quote at the top end of things but even so.

With my mum’s wish to be cremated then I don’t see the point of fancy coffins etc. We can have the Polish Catholic priest officiate the ceremony at the crematorium so that is really what we wanted to save 2 location cost fees. She was a Polish Catholic so that would be a must for her.

I hope all goes well for you tomorrow x