After years of caring and loss it`s terribly difficult to get some form of life back. However distasteful it may seem to us, the alternative is becoming reclusive.
I`ve always said I`d rather be alone than among people I had no connection with. I`m sure everyone will agree, the older we get the harder it is to make proper friends, not just acquaintances.
During the 22 months since Dhiren died I`ve had eye surgery, been to India, scattered Dhiren`s ashes, returned to politics , tried several groups with U3A, attended a singing group, returned to Tai Chi, attended a Buddhist Group, started my own meditation group and tried to have something `to do` most days in the week.
My aim is to return to yoga but for now I`m too heavy and feel too clumsy.
I have discontinued U3A. It doesn`t suit me. I think in this area, for me, it is quite limited.
It would be so much easier to sit at home and read. When I do sit at home, not only do I read but I also eat.
Yesterday I went to a Hard of Hearing Group. Most members were so much older than I am and however ageist, I didn`t feel ready yet to be part of that group. However, the welcome was amazing .
It seems organised to a degree but in need of help. I think it`s very important this type of group is encouraged to thrive and doesn`t fall by the wayside . It was the first time
ever I felt I was among a group of people who had similar hearing losses to mine
Before going home I spoke to one of the `committee`. She said all the organisers were becoming too old to give the time and energy the group needs and so I offered my services. In the new year I hope to be able to do just that.