I felt so exhausted today. Drained. Mum didn't ring me at work though which I'm glad about, though I did jump every time I heard a phone ring! She seemed more relaxed today. Her thoughts seemed clearer.
I appreciate all your replies and I have taken it all on board.
I want to enjoy 'me time' but then feel guilty that I should be spending time with mum instead. While I can.
I have a very understanding supervisor so I'm lucky in that respect.
I asked about counselling but decided against it. Perhaps one day I will take it up.
My brother is the only other person who knows mum as well as I do. I do offload to him and he understands. He isn't as emotional as I am though and seems more able to take a step back. This is because I've always just got on with the organising. That's a hard habit to break now, I haven't perfected the art of delegation. Partly because there aren't people to delegate to. If I do it I know it's done!
I guess I don't offload to people because I don't want to be the person who is constantly negative and talking about my problems. I feel I'm betraying mum a little too.
I'm glad I have you all. I can get it all out and you probably save my husband listening to a lot of ranting! X
P.S Scarlett123 and 2jays, I've had similar experiences when mum's boiler broke. The engineer gave me a ridiculous story about having come round but got no answer so put a card through. Then tried to blame her memory loss on it and said she must have gone out!!! Not true, she stood freezing at the window waiting for him and she's more than capable of spotting a card on her doormat! I was furious!
I appreciate all your replies and I have taken it all on board.
I want to enjoy 'me time' but then feel guilty that I should be spending time with mum instead. While I can.
I have a very understanding supervisor so I'm lucky in that respect.
I asked about counselling but decided against it. Perhaps one day I will take it up.
My brother is the only other person who knows mum as well as I do. I do offload to him and he understands. He isn't as emotional as I am though and seems more able to take a step back. This is because I've always just got on with the organising. That's a hard habit to break now, I haven't perfected the art of delegation. Partly because there aren't people to delegate to. If I do it I know it's done!
I guess I don't offload to people because I don't want to be the person who is constantly negative and talking about my problems. I feel I'm betraying mum a little too.
I'm glad I have you all. I can get it all out and you probably save my husband listening to a lot of ranting! X
P.S Scarlett123 and 2jays, I've had similar experiences when mum's boiler broke. The engineer gave me a ridiculous story about having come round but got no answer so put a card through. Then tried to blame her memory loss on it and said she must have gone out!!! Not true, she stood freezing at the window waiting for him and she's more than capable of spotting a card on her doormat! I was furious!