Im going through a very dark patch at the moment, I lost my best friend yesterday. He treated me like a daughter and my children like his grandchildren. He was always there for me whatever the time of day and night. I could talk to him about anything and everything. He got me back into re-enacting when mum first started to go " Funny" on us. I was with mum when the news came through about my friends death. Needless to say I was really upset. She was concerned as I don't usually cry over anything. Today I was in the car with her when a song on the radio reminded me of my friend, So I started crying ( as im doing right now writing this). Mum turns round to me and says " Why are you crying" I explained about my friend dying. She then says " Well he's dead now, nothing to do with me." I really wanted support from my mum but I now feel bitterness towards her for what she said. I don't think I can go and see mum again this week in case I say or do something I might regret later. But I need support as im just a blubbering wreck at the moment. Anyone who knows me from my previous posts knows that im usually a strong person but I just don't seem to be handling my friends death very well. Mum just doesn't seem to realise that im the one needing support and a shoulder to cry on and time and space for me. Im supposed to carry on as if nothing as happened.