Thanks @Woo2 @Bikerbeth x She was in one of her I can do it all moods, you dont come everyday, I don't need help because I'm ok. I expect a bit of panic with mum when someone is coming or she's going somewhere but felt I should mention it just before carer came so I could explain I'd stay for little bit with them before leaving so she knew what was happening and get the grumbling out the way before carer came. I had a feeling there would be some today so mentioned it about 20 minutes before carer came.
When she did moan I tried to keep positive and gentle with her, but also a little bit firm as in its happening now and too late to change mind. I think when she's in her I can do it all mood I don't want to bring her down and make her feel useless, but I need to be a bit firm or she'll think she doesn't need to have carer, or me, or whatever help it is she needs. I kept my answers quite short and to point, just kept reminding her its only 2 afternoons a week, she will still see me everyday, she agreed to it as I need a bit of time to do stuff at home and see hubby, she doesn't like being on her own and I don't want her to be, she needs someone to make dinner, she liked other carer on Thursday. Even though she didn't look fond of the idea she did agree before carer was due which was better than in the past because a few month ago she would have said no and said she'd tell them to go and refuse to let them in.
She's had a bit of an odd day today, when I got there this morning she was dressed quite smart with shoes on and handbag out and asked where hubby was. She thought it was Sunday and we were going out.
She didn't feel like colouring this morning, she tried doing some puzzles in magazine but kept doing them wrong so gave up. Then she seemed ok for a while but still didn't want to colour after lunch but we were watching tv and she was ok and then we had chat about carer before she came where as expected wasn't ok but seemed to accept coming in end.
When carer had gone mum kept saying I could go home if I wanted she'd be ok and could do her own dinner but I said it was ok. She said you could go home and have yer dinner with hubby so I said I'd maybe do her dinner before hubby came and then have mine at home with him, she said she could do it but she can't, I didn't say anything about that though. Through afternoon she kept asking what I was having for tea and saying she didn't know what she was going to have. I told her I could do her the stew and dumpling ready meal had got for carer to do but she said she didn't fancy it, she kept on mentioning dinner in same way for next two hours. When I text hubby about carer not being well and me staying he said we can stay for dinner like normal if mum unsettled and so in end we did and I made us all something and we left at normal time.
There were quite a few mothers day ads on tele today and she said at one point after asking when it was, I havent got a mum to get flowers for now, or at least I don't think I have cos she's not been to see me and I think she's dead. I said yes she is mum, it was a long time ago now. She said I thought it was, then said I think I'll buy some flowers cos I like them so I told her it was Mothers day on Sunday so she would probably be getting some cos she's a mum and she said oh yes love I am to you and your lovely and seemed a bit cheerier for a bit.
She asked me in afternoon which way went to my village from hers and then was asking how long had lived there what my house was like and had she seen it, then she said I suppose I'd recognise it if I saw it but not seen it for ages. She sees it all the time and last saw it when she came on sunday.
She didn't seem totally settled, I tried to keep her chatting and we were watching tv she usually likes and she wasn't too bad, just seemed a bit unsettled. Maybe she was thinking about me wanting time on my own and worrying about carers or what she could and couldn't do, I'm not sure.
After dinner tonight she was sat with her hand resting over her mouth and looked fidgety so I asked her what matter was and she said nothing, I asked what she was thinking about and she said I'm just thinking about my mum. I was just wondering whether to ask her about it when she asked about something on tv so I didn't and she seemed to go back to watching tv then.
Then when hubby and I were getting ready to go home she said I'm not going to thingy (day centre) tomorrow Andie, I said why? and mum said cos I don't feel like it. I was bit annoyed and was going to try persuade her otherwise but then thought she might change her mind in morning and I didn't want to make her dig her heels in and might make it worse as I was a bit annoyed at her just announcing it like that and didn't want to show it so I just said we'll talk about it in morning. We finished getting coats on and left saying usual goodnights etc , and I gave her a hug like normal but she seemed to hold onto me for a bit longer than usual tonight.
I've just remembered she said earlier today she'd have to wash her hair tonight ready for tomorrow as didn't do it this morning and doesn't like to do it on wednesday mornings when up and leaving early. She didn't say that was why but it could be part of reason she didn't feel like going tomorrow because she had just told me a few minutes before that she felt like could just nod off so maybe she felt too tired wash her hair so said wasn't going cos didn't feel like it.
I'm hoping when I ring her in morning before I set off over there she is going to go and once she realises not washed her hair she doesn't use that as excuse not to. ?
When she did moan I tried to keep positive and gentle with her, but also a little bit firm as in its happening now and too late to change mind. I think when she's in her I can do it all mood I don't want to bring her down and make her feel useless, but I need to be a bit firm or she'll think she doesn't need to have carer, or me, or whatever help it is she needs. I kept my answers quite short and to point, just kept reminding her its only 2 afternoons a week, she will still see me everyday, she agreed to it as I need a bit of time to do stuff at home and see hubby, she doesn't like being on her own and I don't want her to be, she needs someone to make dinner, she liked other carer on Thursday. Even though she didn't look fond of the idea she did agree before carer was due which was better than in the past because a few month ago she would have said no and said she'd tell them to go and refuse to let them in.
She's had a bit of an odd day today, when I got there this morning she was dressed quite smart with shoes on and handbag out and asked where hubby was. She thought it was Sunday and we were going out.
She didn't feel like colouring this morning, she tried doing some puzzles in magazine but kept doing them wrong so gave up. Then she seemed ok for a while but still didn't want to colour after lunch but we were watching tv and she was ok and then we had chat about carer before she came where as expected wasn't ok but seemed to accept coming in end.
When carer had gone mum kept saying I could go home if I wanted she'd be ok and could do her own dinner but I said it was ok. She said you could go home and have yer dinner with hubby so I said I'd maybe do her dinner before hubby came and then have mine at home with him, she said she could do it but she can't, I didn't say anything about that though. Through afternoon she kept asking what I was having for tea and saying she didn't know what she was going to have. I told her I could do her the stew and dumpling ready meal had got for carer to do but she said she didn't fancy it, she kept on mentioning dinner in same way for next two hours. When I text hubby about carer not being well and me staying he said we can stay for dinner like normal if mum unsettled and so in end we did and I made us all something and we left at normal time.
There were quite a few mothers day ads on tele today and she said at one point after asking when it was, I havent got a mum to get flowers for now, or at least I don't think I have cos she's not been to see me and I think she's dead. I said yes she is mum, it was a long time ago now. She said I thought it was, then said I think I'll buy some flowers cos I like them so I told her it was Mothers day on Sunday so she would probably be getting some cos she's a mum and she said oh yes love I am to you and your lovely and seemed a bit cheerier for a bit.
She asked me in afternoon which way went to my village from hers and then was asking how long had lived there what my house was like and had she seen it, then she said I suppose I'd recognise it if I saw it but not seen it for ages. She sees it all the time and last saw it when she came on sunday.
She didn't seem totally settled, I tried to keep her chatting and we were watching tv she usually likes and she wasn't too bad, just seemed a bit unsettled. Maybe she was thinking about me wanting time on my own and worrying about carers or what she could and couldn't do, I'm not sure.
After dinner tonight she was sat with her hand resting over her mouth and looked fidgety so I asked her what matter was and she said nothing, I asked what she was thinking about and she said I'm just thinking about my mum. I was just wondering whether to ask her about it when she asked about something on tv so I didn't and she seemed to go back to watching tv then.
Then when hubby and I were getting ready to go home she said I'm not going to thingy (day centre) tomorrow Andie, I said why? and mum said cos I don't feel like it. I was bit annoyed and was going to try persuade her otherwise but then thought she might change her mind in morning and I didn't want to make her dig her heels in and might make it worse as I was a bit annoyed at her just announcing it like that and didn't want to show it so I just said we'll talk about it in morning. We finished getting coats on and left saying usual goodnights etc , and I gave her a hug like normal but she seemed to hold onto me for a bit longer than usual tonight.
I've just remembered she said earlier today she'd have to wash her hair tonight ready for tomorrow as didn't do it this morning and doesn't like to do it on wednesday mornings when up and leaving early. She didn't say that was why but it could be part of reason she didn't feel like going tomorrow because she had just told me a few minutes before that she felt like could just nod off so maybe she felt too tired wash her hair so said wasn't going cos didn't feel like it.
I'm hoping when I ring her in morning before I set off over there she is going to go and once she realises not washed her hair she doesn't use that as excuse not to. ?