How did it go?I'm off for a scan tomorrow morning, purely as a precaution to make sure there's nothing underlying going on.
Hope you are having a nice weekend.
How did it go?I'm off for a scan tomorrow morning, purely as a precaution to make sure there's nothing underlying going on.
Hi. Thank you, yes I did have a good weekend and as for the scan, it was the usual, contact your Dr after two weeks. I'm not going to lose any sleep worrying about it. I was meaning to go out for the evening tonight but all I wanted to do was sleep. That's why I'm posting now, nice and early. So now I will sleep and hopefully wake refreshed, ready to face another day. So goodnight, Al. .How did it go?
Hope you are having a nice weekend.
Hi. I've often said a problem shared and all that. This site proves it works. Posting on here is probably one of the best thing I ever did, it has certainly helped me so far and if my posts can help others that's another reason to continue posting. I must admit I haven't been here for a while. I seem to be settled out now in, i was going to say rut, but that would be the wrong word. It's a kind of acceptance that this is the way it is now. It's not going to get any better but for a while now at least things have stayed the same. The slow weight gain continues, she's eating and drinking well, she's fine with others yet still won't tolerate a visit from me! As I said, I'm used to it now so as long as she's happy in her own way, then I can take a bit of a back seat and get on with life. Yet having said that a day never passes without me thinking what she's doing right now and what we would have been doing had things been normal. Right, before I depress myself further I'm off now to get something to eatthere's an excellent fishand chip shop in town but I might leave that until Friday there must be something in the freezer, or as usual full of things I don't particularly fancyyou know how it is. Bye for now Al..I am fairly new to TP following my Mother’s diagnosis at the end of January but I just wanted to Thank You for sharing your journey. I know the path with my Mum will be different but the sharing on this site is incredible
Hi. Rollercoaster sums it up perfectly, I'm on the up at present so while I'm there I'm just going to enjoy the moment. Al.Hi @AL60 I couldn’t agree more with your sentiments because I did the same thing when trying to make decisions about taking him on holiday again or organising respite etc. I reread my diary from a year ago and that did the trick. I am very cheered that you are feeling more cheerful on the whole but it is a rollercoaster I agree.
Always good to hear from you @AL60 and I am hoping you enjoy the holiday with all the variations. I have just had my first holiday alone in decades and I quite enjoyed it, even though I would have preferred him to be with me as he used to be. I don’t have the aggro that you suffer and now he is at home again, but that two weeks was blissful and I hope yours is too.Hi. It's been a while since I updated on here. Just last Monday I went to visit the nursing home where my wife is now living. I wasn't expecting the best of welcomes so in that respect I wasn't too disappointed. However, even now I find the screaming at the top of her voice, shouting at me to get out, rather disconcerting. That's probably an understatement. In truth it's awful. But that's the way it is and I accept it. To be honest, i only went because I was leaving for two weeks holiday a few days later. I suppose it was a kind of guilt thing that prompted me to go in the first place. It's the first proper holiday I've had since she went to the care home almost a year ago. So here I am, outside my daughters hired villa in, to be honest, not so sunny Florida posting on here. I'm doing it to prove to myself that things can go on as reasonably normal and that for me, things can only get better. I'm having a good break from the realities of life at home and for the most part have forgotten for now just how much I've been feeling so low. Tomorrow the sun will be shining once again and so it is with life, one day down and the next bright once again. So back to enjoying my break here in Florida. No matter how heavy the downpours are the sun always comes back and it's never cold. So I'm going to enjoy the rest of my holiday with not an ounce of guilt and return at the end of the month refreshed. Al60.
Hi. Dare I believe summer has finally arrived back home. If it has I'm definitely coming back next Sunday. The sunshine down here is great for oranges and tourists but give me the soft kiss of the gentle summer rain of Cheshire any time. But for today, anyone for the beach?.Glad to hear you are enjoying your holiday.
We did have sun in Cheshire yesterday (cafe stop was Beeston) but I suspect your sun in florida is much warmer and more relaxing.
Hi. Dare I believe summer has finally arrived back home. If it has I'm definitely coming back next Sunday. The sunshine down here is great for oranges and tourists but give me the soft kiss of the gentle summer rain of Cheshire any time. But for today, anyone for the beach?.
So pleased you have had a good break. You need to try to set aside the day or two each week to visit your wife. No point in trying every day. She has no recollection of you and the happy life you had together. Dementia is the saddest decease and next week when I am at my husbands funeral It will be a celebration of his life and the fact that he will no longer be suffering this cruel and wicked disease. One day she may smile at you again. My husband changed his mood quite often. You have done nothing wrong. Its this awful illness.xxHi again. It's ten o'clock on Wednesday morning. The temperature is approaching 90 again, I've got three full days left of my holiday and I'm ready. Ready to come back, fully recharged and refreshed. Holidays for me have always been a time to relax and reflect on the past year and to make plans for the future. When I arrived two weeks ago my only thought was just to escape and try not to think or worry about home life. This downtime has really been so relaxed that it's actually given me time to take stock of where i am and where im heading. Just two things have changed. No more worrying and getting wound up over things i have no control over. That's change number one. Number two is more complicated but a lot clearer than two weeks ago. And that's making plans for the future. Really, those thoughts have always been there, staring me in the face but I was so short sighted I couldn't see it clearly. Now I have and I feel so much better for it. Three weeks ago my youngest daughter told me she'd found a house she'd like to buy. Oh, i thought, another chapter over. An empty house for me to rattle around in. Now I find myself looking forward to her moving out. She's only just a mile away and it'll still be me on the daily dog walk, all the fun and none of the mess! I can go out leaving a tidy-ish house and return finding it as I'd left itNow that's a positive! I'll have the fridge and freezer back as my own again! Not to mention the washing machine! All positives. So I've plenty to think about over the coming months and plenty of friends and family to share with. The future really is bright. I shall attempt to visit my wife at the nursing home and if it upsets her then I'll leave. I won't let it upset me as its at the top of that list of things I have no control over. Must go now, the rest of the family are finally emerging . I don't mind the heat but they're struggling a little. They booked Florida in June and don't like the heat. What they need is a holiday so they can plan better next time.Al.
Ps to Jugglingmum. I brought a fleecy blanket with me for cool evening but I'll be leaving it behind to make space for other goodies Al