The Christmas tree is now becoming a personal issue! silly really!
I have had my Christmas spirit get up & evacuate the premises!
Silly but the last straw is that while I’m working on Sunday my husband will be visiting his family & having lunch & dinner cooked for him, exchanging all the presents I purchased & wrapped for his family; & having a jolly time of it!
meanwhile I’m struggling to try & get everything done here! I will not be wrapping lots of presents for Mum & Dad! I am hoping to collate a picture book for each of them! Not that they will know who is who in the photos!
I love Christmas, don’t get me wrong - but this is the saddest time of this dementia journey & I don’t have any emotional or physical reserves left now!
I’m all out! Yet I put on the pretence I’m coping on a daily basis. if I didn’t have this outlet for the utter sadness & grief I think this whole process would just eat me up alive. As it is it’s had a good attempt!
I really do hope my parents don’t live much longer, it’s cruel beyond belief.
So if I could have one thing I want this torture to end! I want my life back, I cannot keep doing this anymore.
Please don’t be shocked or horrified at me, I’m a good person just not as strong as others on here.