My dear mum is 84 with mixed Alzheimers and Vascular Dementia. She is in a lovely NH where the staff all love her to bits.
Over the last few weeks she appears to have been having multiple cerebral events, each one causing her to decline further mentally. They also have led to her being very unsettled to the point of needing morphine and midazalam. She then displays all the signs of actively dying. I have lost count now of how many days, weeks, months I have sat by her bed thinking she was about to die. Each time I hope that this time her ordeal will be over for her. But she rallies again. I feel awful to say that each time she rallies I feel a little bit disappointed for her that this pain and suffering has to continue for her.
The GP saw her last week when she was flat and she also thought that she was actively dying; declared her GSF red and we discussed funeral directors.
I feel so guilty though to be wanting this to be over.
Over the last few weeks she appears to have been having multiple cerebral events, each one causing her to decline further mentally. They also have led to her being very unsettled to the point of needing morphine and midazalam. She then displays all the signs of actively dying. I have lost count now of how many days, weeks, months I have sat by her bed thinking she was about to die. Each time I hope that this time her ordeal will be over for her. But she rallies again. I feel awful to say that each time she rallies I feel a little bit disappointed for her that this pain and suffering has to continue for her.
The GP saw her last week when she was flat and she also thought that she was actively dying; declared her GSF red and we discussed funeral directors.
I feel so guilty though to be wanting this to be over.