So so glad you have some good news at last. Give yourself (and niece), some time and space.With everything you have been dealing with (both of you), you have had no real time to grieve properly, or to start to move on and start to make a new home and life for yourselves. Wishing you lots of good things to come. It’s hard to be on your own on Xmas Day, but try and make it a day for you. Whether that is doing something nice or even a day to concentrate on memories, grieve, smile, cry, laugh and start to let go and move on. Maybe look at photographs, listen to music that meant something to you and your Mum, take a walk someplace you used to go together, and feel that though she has passed on she is and always will be still with you. Xx