Thinking of you @Palerider ...And breathe, nice and easy does it, paint on your best smile.((( but you know this you’ve been doing it for a long time))) (((((((((((((( Hugs)))))))) A x
Thanks @Delilah63 it is indeed going to be a 'take deep breath' moment, even though I am tiring of things at home. I'm hopig the CH do a good job with mum when we arrive and help distract her.
I'm feeling prity miserable this morning but trying to keep composed for mum. My brother said he would get David (mums eldest grandchild) to come and see her today, which would be good as she somehow has an attachement to him even now. It would also be good to have someone to distract me for an hour of the day.
Its really wierd I feel such apprehension and mum is only going into a CH, but it feels so final, what is wrong with me....?
Took a deep breath got mum in the car, went for a short drive and we arrived at the CH. Mum walked in with me and by the time she'd had a coffee and I'd signed the paperwork she was very chatty and already making friends, she gave the manager a big hug and mad a fuss of her. I stayed with her and then left as they took mum for lunch to distract her.
I went back with some things for overnight until I get chance to pack properly she had lunch and ate it all and said she enjoyed it. I stayed with her for a coffee and then said I have to leave for work and I will see her tomorrow and kissed her goodbye.
It hasn't hit me yet,but it will, I got a bit teary but stopped myself in front of mum. Sitting here at home without mum is going to be hard for a while.
I really hope she settles, time will tell
Took a deep breath got mum in the car, went for a short drive and we arrived at the CH. Mum walked in with me and by the time she'd had a coffee and I'd signed the paperwork she was very chatty and already making friends, she gave the manager a big hug and mad a fuss of her. I stayed with her and then left as they took mum for lunch to distract her.
I went back with some things for overnight until I get chance to pack properly she had lunch and ate it all and said she enjoyed it. I stayed with her for a coffee and then said I have to leave for work and I will see her tomorrow and kissed her goodbye.
It hasn't hit me yet,but it will, I got a bit teary but stopped myself in front of mum. Sitting here at home without mum is going to be hard for a while.
I really hope she settles, time will tell
So glad mum has settled today @Palerider take time now and be gentle with yourself ((((( Hugs)))) A xThanks everyone. I am surprised at how well mum has just got on with it, I always thought her insistance at staying at home would be a blockage to full time care with a few other problems to boot. But when I left her this afternoon she was happier than I have seen her in a long time. She had eaten and she was stimulated and thought she was in a great hotel. She was chatty and it was like being with mum when she was very happy and not like the last few months of just existiing and to be honest hard work not for me but for herself, she just didnt know anymore.
I think she will be ok, but even though we know that, deep down in our heart we also have to learn to let go and that with this disease is the awful dilemma....when and if we should do that?
I think and I hope that for my mum having done everything I can do and given how she is today that now is the right time to hand that care over. It does sadden me to do this, but on my own there is no way I could ensure mums own wellbeing, and that at the end of the day is what matters