3 days, 3 nights to go!
Where do I start....
the person I took into the care home and the person over the last couple of days and this morning....
I think they have swapped my husband for someone else.
Or did I take in someone else and now my real husband is back?
It’s so confusing.
Last week when I talked to him, he was kind, thoughtful, caring, loving and worrying about ME!
He has now become angry, aggressive, self obsessed, and if he doesn’t like what I say, then he says will you shut up, will you let me speak, but often there is a silence, or he puts the phone down.
He was accepting of the situation in the beginning. Having different people dealing with his incontinence aids just happened, no argument, no problems. Now, I think he must be being difficult with them. When they turn up if it’s not the right time to suit him he sends them away. Then he has to buzz them to come back!
And he is demanding to know who is fitting his night pad, the most complicated one. He writes it down. And if that person doesn’t turn up and someone else comes to do it.... well, I don’t know what he is saying or doing but he is certainly angry with me over it!
It doesn’t bode well for Monday. I thought I would be desperate to see him. I was last week, but he is being so difficult I don’t know anymore.
What I do know is that he will be home Monday, I will still be on crutches, I don’t think he was born with any patience! I struggle with his self obsession, and that is what has become so obvious these past few days.
I have no choice but to get on with it.
I’m almost always a misery when I write on here.... sorry
But, thank you for always being there... such welcome comfort.
Love B xx