I really hear what you say.
Conversations... I’m not sure we have had a proper conversation for, well, I can’t remember. We talk, but it always results in verbal fisticuffs. We never talk things through, mostly he just doesn’t understand, or get what I’m trying to explain, it takes so much effort to get through to him, so I don’t bother most of the time.
But it’s not you, it’s this disease that doesn’t just affect them, it eats away at us. I think we carers are just shells now, tap us and we will crack!
I dont have anyone to take me to hospital, so I will book a taxi. My two cousins are going to bring me home, but they won’t be staying. I will be fine, but it will be very strange being in this house on my own for two weeks. I actually find the thought quite daunting.
Life is tough, and complicated, and confusing. dimentia is designed to keep us on our toes.
Thinking of you and sending love, B xx