I had one of the top three worst visits today with my beloved mum. She was ok when I saw her this afternoon and ate a raspberry pavlova. But I got a phone call at 8 pm saying her temperature had shot up. When I got there, the GP was there, and he said she has a chest infection and her heart is racing. They said what about hospital and I said I'd lie in front of the ambulance rather than put her through that again. Anyway the doctor didnt say anything to me about hospital, he just said Mum needs antibiotics.
I went in and sat with Mum and she was extremely ill three times. I won't go into details. Her eyes were flickering and rolling back in her head. It was awful. I keep seeing her again in my head, struggling to breathe. I held her head and pushed the buzzer. It seemed an age til the girls came but they were so good.
The really nice night nurse is on tonight.
I'm hoping Mum is peaceful. I feel an awful guilt. I shouldn't have left her tonight but I couldn't bear it.
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I went in and sat with Mum and she was extremely ill three times. I won't go into details. Her eyes were flickering and rolling back in her head. It was awful. I keep seeing her again in my head, struggling to breathe. I held her head and pushed the buzzer. It seemed an age til the girls came but they were so good.
The really nice night nurse is on tonight.
I'm hoping Mum is peaceful. I feel an awful guilt. I shouldn't have left her tonight but I couldn't bear it.
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