Vanda it is still very early days for you, grieving can be a very slow process. My husband passed away at the end of March and I am now remembering my husband as he was before dementia. He was diagnosed just over 11 years ago.
We do have a newish thread on here that was set up a few weeks ago for widows and widowers to put our thoughts and feelings down every week. Hopefully in a few months time we can look back at our thoughts and feelings and see how well we have moved on. We are all different, no set rules and remember because we have cared for someone with dementia we too have suffered and that takes extra time to heal.
When you have a moment take a look at the thread and join in if you feel it will help you.
Here is the link - http://forum.alzheimers.org.uk/showthread.php?93932-Widows-(and-widowers)-weekly-update
We do have a newish thread on here that was set up a few weeks ago for widows and widowers to put our thoughts and feelings down every week. Hopefully in a few months time we can look back at our thoughts and feelings and see how well we have moved on. We are all different, no set rules and remember because we have cared for someone with dementia we too have suffered and that takes extra time to heal.
When you have a moment take a look at the thread and join in if you feel it will help you.
Here is the link - http://forum.alzheimers.org.uk/showthread.php?93932-Widows-(and-widowers)-weekly-update