Hello and welcome first of all from me and all of us I'm sure.
Really don't know what to say, our children, my wife passed away a while back we all still struggle but I want them to get over it, I picked my partner for love, they didn't pick us as parents.
Hardest thing my mum had to go through was my older brother dying, something wrong in nature a child dying before a parent was how she put it.
Miss her and my now late wife everyday, just finding it hard but life has to go on somehow. K