I thought I would be alright. I was ill last Christmas and I am not on top form this Christmas. I have had loads of phone calls from friends saying that they are thinking of me and offering all kinds of invitations but I just can't accept. I seem to be feeling the same kind of pressure that I had last year when Alan was here. It has hit me today all of a sudden. I think I am re-experiencing what happened last year I could just sit and cry but don't want to. I have a friend coming round at 5pm and we will go to my d-i-law for a small Christmas celebration. I feel under enormous pressure to be alright for them all.
Last year is a blank - I only remember that Alan walked 5 miles on Boxing Day. I don't remember events but I do remember feeling like I do today
I will do my best that's all I can do. I hope it passes. Already I can't wait to be back home (and I haven't gone out yet) and back on the computer to you all on TP.
Love
Last year is a blank - I only remember that Alan walked 5 miles on Boxing Day. I don't remember events but I do remember feeling like I do today
I will do my best that's all I can do. I hope it passes. Already I can't wait to be back home (and I haven't gone out yet) and back on the computer to you all on TP.
Love