Hello all,
After a very harrowing 12 days without food and 9 days without fluids in palliative care, my darling Mum passed away this afternoon. My Dad and I were thankfully with her and managed to get her blessed by a priest as would be her wish.
She passed before the nurses could set up the syringe driver for her. I found the end distressing but I am glad that she is now at peace x. I feel for all of you going through this end stage. It is so difficult to watch your loved one deteriorate and we felt so helpless.
I will treasure the past few days though, sitting with her and talking and praying with her, brushing her hair, putting cream on her hands and face, giving her mouth care. I feel I got to say everything I wanted to say and could press my forehead against hers and hold her hand.
I have had some very strong premonition dreams this week and also some hours later, by missing my usual petrol station through feeling so distracted, I had to detour past the funeral directors where she was now resting! I stopped outside for a little while. It was hard to believe my Mum was now in there!
I would like to think they are throwing a big party up there in Heaven - she will be reunited with her Mum and Dad and two brothers.
After a very harrowing 12 days without food and 9 days without fluids in palliative care, my darling Mum passed away this afternoon. My Dad and I were thankfully with her and managed to get her blessed by a priest as would be her wish.
She passed before the nurses could set up the syringe driver for her. I found the end distressing but I am glad that she is now at peace x. I feel for all of you going through this end stage. It is so difficult to watch your loved one deteriorate and we felt so helpless.
I will treasure the past few days though, sitting with her and talking and praying with her, brushing her hair, putting cream on her hands and face, giving her mouth care. I feel I got to say everything I wanted to say and could press my forehead against hers and hold her hand.
I have had some very strong premonition dreams this week and also some hours later, by missing my usual petrol station through feeling so distracted, I had to detour past the funeral directors where she was now resting! I stopped outside for a little while. It was hard to believe my Mum was now in there!
I would like to think they are throwing a big party up there in Heaven - she will be reunited with her Mum and Dad and two brothers.