I am carer for my 90 year old mother with Alzheimer’s who is obviously deteriorating. Although she is still able to live independently, she is increasingly unkempt and forgetful and crabby. I do my best with no support at all from my toxic Narcissist elder sister who I’ve totally fallen out with anyway. But I’m finding it so exhausting and joyless and recently found myself feeling totally envious of my friend whose mother is in an home now and doesn’t have the worry any more.
It’s hard because through choice I fly solo in life - apart from my beloved dog and now miss having a Mum to support me. Now she doesn’t seem bothered much about me at all which I don’t take personally but it’s hard - and she is very bad tempered with me a lot of the time. I know this is all par for the course with dementia.
I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel, I genuinely think she may well outlive me out of sheer stubbornness and because I’ve had serious health issues (and may well die of a broken heart when my dog goes!) so the rest of my life is going to be consumed with caring for her and subsequently just difficult and miserable and burdened. I probably sound like a horrible selfish daughter but I do everything I can to help her and get no thanks whatsoever while my vile sister just lives her life and snaffles as much of our parents money as she can.
Hoping I’ll feel better in the morning- it’s been a long week…
It’s hard because through choice I fly solo in life - apart from my beloved dog and now miss having a Mum to support me. Now she doesn’t seem bothered much about me at all which I don’t take personally but it’s hard - and she is very bad tempered with me a lot of the time. I know this is all par for the course with dementia.
I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel, I genuinely think she may well outlive me out of sheer stubbornness and because I’ve had serious health issues (and may well die of a broken heart when my dog goes!) so the rest of my life is going to be consumed with caring for her and subsequently just difficult and miserable and burdened. I probably sound like a horrible selfish daughter but I do everything I can to help her and get no thanks whatsoever while my vile sister just lives her life and snaffles as much of our parents money as she can.
Hoping I’ll feel better in the morning- it’s been a long week…