Hello Gigi,
How hard it must be to watch your partner go through this, I can't imagine, and am grateful that my Dad didn't have to see what has happened to Mum. He knew things weren't right, perhaps that's why he went.
I write things down too, but in a haphazard fashion and then can't find the note. I have bought so many notebooks in an effort to organise myself, but forget to use them, and scribble on all sorts of bits of paper.
At work, I sit in meetings, and contradict myself because I can't remember what I said at the last meeting. If my boss is there, he looks at me confused, and I feel as if I don't earn my salary. My staff, accept whatever I say, even when I am irrational, and then I go back to my office, and realise what a complete fool I have just made of myself.
Mum has been hit a couple of times by other residents in the home. She has always been a very tactile person, and other residents, with their own problems, feel threatened and react. Even one of the nurses registered a complaint because Mum came up behind her and put her arms around her. Mum is the least aggressive person I have ever known, but she has always hugged and touched a lot - personal space has never meant anything to her.
I know I will be in trouble with this website for thinking negatively, but is it really wrong not to want to put the burden of dealing with me on the shoulders of others as I deteriorate.
OK - shouldn't have said that - I expect to be jumped on by moderators or whoever - but if it helps - I'm irrational
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