Morning. Just a couple of observations to put down.
Iāve been encouraging my husband to meet an old workmate (they meet up every 3-4 months). He messaged him a couple of days ago to see if wants a catch up.
So bearing in mind that Iāve booked the week off work as it would have been my mums wedding anniversary today and 75th birthday on Wednesday (which at no point on mentioning, has my husband given me any supportive words as he would have in ānormalā times).
When I came down he just said can you read this text (from his friend) because itās a bit complicated. It was (not to me), it had about 4 steps for a meet up (ask to finish work early on a week day, go for a walk, have a couple of drinks, leave his friends car somewhere and I pick up). I explained the suggestion and what he could say back.
(No mention of my mum or hug).
He then got up to leave for work and asked, will I be home when he comes back at lunchtime. I said I should be, Iām just going to the cemetery (thought that might prompt a response), to which he replied, ok, I just wondered if you would be able to make my lunch if I donāt do it now!!
Itās so hard not reacting. Normal for me if faced with that (being forum friendly), would be whereās my cuddle, are you going to mention my mum, is that all youāve got to say to me!
I know itās wrong but I almost hope there is an explanation for this. It would be so wrong otherwise.
Iām not feeling sorry for myself, all things considered, I feel quite strong. Just think Iām at a point where I need to know. I love my OH very much and I know he does me. X