today i went out again as he needed a new bedside lamp. the touch one has gone. went the wrong way there but found the right way back. got to do some work tomorrow as been neglecting it. im tired but i also feel invisible. he has what he wants on tv, food, not doing things he can do for himself and laughs if i tell him he could have done that. he will sit and wait for me to do a cup of tea rather than doing it himself. never puts anything in the bin. its alright going out but i still have to do things when i get back as he wont. ive hit a brick wall for clearing as i need it collecting or my son to drop it off. i have been de-cluttering my bedroom so another bag gone and cuddlies. where my younger son is coming next week, i need just to sort the house, doing bits each day. im frustrated how slow it is but once he goes back, i will start again. my bedroom is being cleared slowly. ive benefited by going out and seeing other people. the walls were closing in and i get more breaks without him this way. the one thing that is a pain is the hand baskets in the shops as they dont fit anywhere so i use my front basket. i did have a bump in a lift in a shop but not too bad just have to member to take my hand off the power.