I hear you, Scarlett. That desperation will lessen. Yes, it'll take time, but things will ease; and for now, just do what you feel you're capable of. Don't rush things, but also, do not just sit and stagnate. That only makes things worse. You need other people sometimes, and something to grab your interest. It's why I built my music studio. Took a long time, that did, but those who come here now, notice it straight away and it gets conversations about my love of radio going
By the way, Scarlett. How is that foot?
Well, I had 2 hammer toes straightened on My Left Foot, which were also badly bent by arthritis. The one next to the big toe, and the one next to that. The first one could win X Factor - it's marvellous! Straight, smooth and gorgeous. The second one is worse than it was before.
Not only is it still bent, but it meanders at a strange angle, towards the smaller toes. I have found wonderful comfort this summer by wearing sandals, with Velcro, that have a strap around the heel, and another across the front of the foot, below the toes. I always swore I would never wear these, but needs must.
Thank you for asking.