I really do know how you feel. I’ve stopped looking at old photos as this distresses me too much. Our marriage of 25 years had so much promise and those photos show a woman extremely articulate and able to organise, boss me around in a loving way, support me in all our decisions. Now she struggles with the game of snakes and ladders. It’s also the underlying anticipation that matters are going to get worse and not knowing when it’s going to happen. I’ve often asked myself why me but that just increases my resentment at all the things I wanted to do and can’t. We’ve done nothing to deserve it , those who have escaped it so far need to be very, very grateful. I don’t now remember what my wife was like before the dementia took hold. It’s been 4 years since the first symptoms and this reality wipes away the memory of what we lived like as normal people. How I long for those years to be back. Bless you.Stupid thread, but I’m sitting here trying to be patient, looking at the man I’ve been with for nearly 50 years and wondering where he has gone?
When did all this really start?
What have we done to deserve this?
It’s breaking my heart?
I can’t believe that tomorrow could be worse than today.
That it can’t get easier than today, and today is so hard.
Life can be so cruel.
I am not sure who has him, but I want him back.