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I think thats what people might think of me that i’m unemotional and don’t really care. I have to try really hard not to cry when I talk about mum and I think I sound matter of fact and like don’t care or just don’t say much at all. I’m also very shy and have low confidence so don’t do well at talking to strangers anyway so makes dealing with staff hard but I try for my mums sake.
I’m worrying about getting to see mum today as hubby drops me off and picks me up but today he’s not feeling good. He’s got his heartburny indigestion back this morning. We had cheese n chive dip with cheese twists and roly poly and custard last night and not long after he ate it he laid down watching tele for rest of evening.
He’s woke up this morning burping and tasting the dip, with tummy ache thinking he wants to go to loo and cant and feeling bit sick and gone into panic mode.
Poor hubby is petrified of being ill and really panics which makes him feel worse. I tried being sympathetic when he got back in bed, stroking his arm to calm him down, suggested having some gaviscon and propping himself up a bit cos uncomfy laid flat. He propped head up but that just meant neck bent then lay there gulping for a while. I said he’d be taking in air which will make it worse and try to just breathe and stay calm. He agrees with everything I say cutting me off while saying it but not doing anything. He doesn’t listen he goes in panic mode and keeps getting worked up.
I’m afraid I lost my patience with him this morning and got annoyed at him agreeing with me but doing same thing and saying he was listening when he wasn’t. I feel bad cos I know he’s stressed and worrying about me and mum and he is scared when he's ill but he makes himself worse by panicking and I try being gentle and coaxing him out of it but sometimes I can’t and I don’t have the patience today. I can’t cope with him feeling ill as well as mum.
I know I’m being selfish but I can’t deal with both and I am also worried about him being able to take me to see mum this afternoon.
There’s still hard snow on roads where we come out of our garage and around mums CH and I’m worried if he is feeling bad while driving he’ll panic and not be concentrating. He says he’ll be fine, while at the same time laying in bed gulping and shaking cos he thinks he feels sick.
I do feel sorry for him and normally would be fussing over him but I need him to be ok and strong for me at moment which I know is selfish but I still feel it.
I think thats what people might think of me that i’m unemotional and don’t really care. I have to try really hard not to cry when I talk about mum and I think I sound matter of fact and like don’t care or just don’t say much at all. I’m also very shy and have low confidence so don’t do well at talking to strangers anyway so makes dealing with staff hard but I try for my mums sake.
I’m worrying about getting to see mum today as hubby drops me off and picks me up but today he’s not feeling good. He’s got his heartburny indigestion back this morning. We had cheese n chive dip with cheese twists and roly poly and custard last night and not long after he ate it he laid down watching tele for rest of evening.
He’s woke up this morning burping and tasting the dip, with tummy ache thinking he wants to go to loo and cant and feeling bit sick and gone into panic mode.
Poor hubby is petrified of being ill and really panics which makes him feel worse. I tried being sympathetic when he got back in bed, stroking his arm to calm him down, suggested having some gaviscon and propping himself up a bit cos uncomfy laid flat. He propped head up but that just meant neck bent then lay there gulping for a while. I said he’d be taking in air which will make it worse and try to just breathe and stay calm. He agrees with everything I say cutting me off while saying it but not doing anything. He doesn’t listen he goes in panic mode and keeps getting worked up.
I’m afraid I lost my patience with him this morning and got annoyed at him agreeing with me but doing same thing and saying he was listening when he wasn’t. I feel bad cos I know he’s stressed and worrying about me and mum and he is scared when he's ill but he makes himself worse by panicking and I try being gentle and coaxing him out of it but sometimes I can’t and I don’t have the patience today. I can’t cope with him feeling ill as well as mum.
I know I’m being selfish but I can’t deal with both and I am also worried about him being able to take me to see mum this afternoon.
There’s still hard snow on roads where we come out of our garage and around mums CH and I’m worried if he is feeling bad while driving he’ll panic and not be concentrating. He says he’ll be fine, while at the same time laying in bed gulping and shaking cos he thinks he feels sick.
I do feel sorry for him and normally would be fussing over him but I need him to be ok and strong for me at moment which I know is selfish but I still feel it.