Hello Jan,
Yes how time flies indeed,
Sorry to hear your dear husband is deteriorating fast too, mine as well unfortunately.
Its been a roller coaster since then - David has deteriorated - now in cot sided bed, very confused, fed pureed food and thickened drinks.
This is us to a T. We have just had a trial period on slow release morphine plasters and then the liquid morphine because my husbands pain in his back and leg is so bad but it is all too strong for him, and knocks him out completely. i.e. no eating, drinking or motions, which of course is even worse for the chest, which is so vulnerable as you say. We are now on Quinine tablets and they seem to relax him enough to have a good night but the early mornings and days are still bad, so back to the doctor tomorrow to see if he can take one in the morning too. I don't know quite how strong they are.
It is really hard is it not
. I knew it would be harder for me with my husband than it was with my mother and believe me that was hard enough. I so feel for you both and can totally emphasise with your sorrow. My husband is so lovely, brave and good tempered most of the time, I believe yours is too and that almost make it worse I feel, because they look so vulnerable with their large trusting eyes.
Big big cuddles from me.