Jan, I don't think I can see the particularly personal albums - but don't worry about that now - I get the gist - you are very down and without a lot of hope. There is always hope - hope that he will be comfortable tonight, hope that he will be comforted tonight, hope that he remembers you tonight and your consistent and deep love for him in his misty foggedness.
You are in my thoughts & prayers. I hope you get some rest, even if little sleep, xoxox, Sue