Thank you...a lovely sentiment and for you too. Am in Izzy's wide awake club at 3.20am with thoughts of mum dad and brother whizzing round in my head.Another new year without that special someone. Let`s hope 2019 will be easier for all of us.
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Another new year without that special someone. Let`s hope 2019 will be easier for all of us.
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Oh my! I have cried reading this! How very brave some people are, it put into perspective I should be thankful and so so grateful that my darling OH is here with me! Of course he’s not the Man he was, but are any of us! Thank you for making me open my eyes!
I was dreading and trying not to think of , and couldn’t see any future, but we are still a couple.
My heartfelt wishes to you and anyone who’s OH has passed away in2018
May you find peace and comfort and a future with some happiness.
I was 45 when I lost my mother and 46 when I lost my Dad and all I could think of was I was an orphan and who would think of me. I had a lovely husband and two great children but no one thinks of you like your parents do.
That orphan feeling really got to me.
Me too!
And talking of orphans "Oliver" is on TV ... This time last year I was watching it with dad. And just when I thought I wouldn't cry again
I sat thinking of all the New Year's Day walks I did with Bill and decided I didn't want to do one on my own.
Thank you @Grannie G it was a quiet but pleasant enough entry into the New Year for us. As sad as I feel, it is nowhere near the level of despair I was feeling this time last year. Back then I wondered how on earth I would get through another year of intensive caring for my husband, not realising that he would not live another year - and spent the period between Christmas and New Year frantically requesting help and assessments from the Council and Mental Health team. When we are at the start of a new year it all seems so unmanageable and never-ending..
This year, although I sometimes wonder how I might get through the year(s) ahead without my husband - that intense feeling of despair is not there and I am grateful that, for the most part, I feel at peace.
I wish the same peace to others.