Poor Piedsmum is poorly again.

[LYN T]

Well done Creative Sarah

You live up to your name. How appropriate to feature swans in your video-serene on the surface with so much effort underneath to keep going.Just like Pied.

Pied we all realise by now that in front of your Mum you are serenity personified, underneath the surface you are treading water to keep up.

Take care my dear

Love to you, Sis and your lovely Mum.

Lyn T

 

[cragmaid]

Gwen could not have said this better....

You are the child we all wish to have had.
Your Mum did a splendid job, she wouldn't want you to be afraid.

x.

 

[fredsnail]

I hope that your Mum is now peaceful again after the last turn - I also hopes she holds on until M is on.

You and your sis are doing a grand job. I remember only too well the "pop" to the loo which involved a sprint walk there and back when Grandad was poorly a while back.

 

[fredsnail]

I have created a group for anyone who wants to light a candle for Pied's Mum. Candles stay lit for 48 hrs, so don't forget to go back...

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=Pieds

Fiona

Another bump for the candle site.

 

[Skye]

Sarah, your video is beautiful. What a wonderful gift for Pied. Lyn, I agree, so fitting for Pied.

And I too would be so proud to have Pied as my daughter.

Xxxxx

 

[Rosie Webros]

Oh Pied, I am so sorry for you, your mom and your sister. It is so frustrating when there is nothing we can do to help you. I so wish there was. But we are all thinking about you and I am sending you, your sister and mom a virtual hug. ((((hug)))) xx

 

[FifiMo]

Hiya Pied,

The increased morphine can have triggered more pronounced cheyne stokes as it suppresses the respiratory system.can all be the reason for the number of reps per minute slowing down too. Although still on a relatively low dose of morphine, keep in your mine that her dose has in fact been doubled today.

I know what you mean about the cheyne stokes, my sister said it was like gratuitous exercise for us as every time the gaps got longer we stood up, as though we were preparing for this being the main event LOL. One indicator thou is the other things I mentioned last night eg mottling, cold extremities etc. these are almost always present just before death. With mum, for example, mottling was apparent about 20-30 mins before her death. By then her eyes had become opaque and clearly no longer functioning. The increasing sleep is also thought of, from a spiritual perspective, of the act of pulling away, slowly, releasing their hold on this dimension, loved ones, etc.

Hope this helps,

Fiona

PS, at this stage I would let them use whatever morphine they consider necessary to make your mum comfortable. That last thing you would ever want to wander is that she may have been in pain.

 

[piedwarbler]

Thank you all sooooo much.

It's horrid.

We have just watched Dad's Army and laughed and hoped Mum could hear. She'd love watching it with us.

Watching this breathing pattern is surreal. You keep thinking, is this it? Please God, take her x

 

[piedwarbler]

Sarah, thank you for the video, I'll watch it when I'm home as I'm on 3G here and I only have 1 m of data.

 

[piedwarbler]

Thanks Fifi, we have begged for morphine all day yesterday and were told it was not going to be given.

 

[piedwarbler]

(Because we were sure Mum was in pain from the infected pressure sore). The odour is heavy tonight. Sorry to be graphic but I did promise to be honest.

 

[Helen33]

Every time I get close to losing her I want to grab her and hold her.

I wonder if your mum could speak whether the words above could be from her to you?

Sending love to you all.

 

[piedwarbler]

I'm just totally flummoxed, bamboozled and discombobulated Helen. I can barely think any more. :/

 

[Dazmum]

Are you going home to sleep tonight Pied, you sound so very tired xxxx

 

[piedwarbler]

Not sure yet. Last night mum wasn't on morphine. X

 

[Shash7677]

Pied, I've read your post from the start and have had and still really have no words. I just wanted to say that I hope your mum finds peace soon.

Am thinking of you, your sister and your mum and will keep on checking in to see how things at going.

Take care, I have no idea where you find such strength, you're an inspiration, your sister too.

Sharon x x

 

[piedwarbler]

Mum seems cold now. The career, T, found a fleece bed jacket I bought her and gently popped it over her shoulders saying, " Now you look really glamorous, look at these little rosebuds," which really upset me. It's just so sad. So very very sad. Please find peace Mum x

 

[CeliaW]

Pied - you have been in my thoughts all day but am sorry that I was unable to post.

I am in awe of the courage and strength you have shown and the honesty with which you have posted here. I bet your Mum and all the family watching over you from above are so proud of you.

You mention the odour from the dressing / pressure sore. Just sprinkle some drops of lavender oil on the sheets near the area and that will help mask some if not all of it.

I hope that it is a peaceful night and the angels watch over you all and if it is the time for your Mum to pass that they take her gently over.

With love

Celia
xxx

 

[DeborahBlythe]

I hope you can pop home for some rest Pied. It might clear your head. You'll enjoy Sarah's video. It's beautiful. xx

 

[Saffie]

Just wishing you another upset-free night.
Your mother defies all expectations again, doesn't she. I'm glad she is peaceful - that is what we would all wish for at our leaving I think.
Your vigil must be so tiring and I hope you can sleep, wherever you are. God bless.x