Hi all.i recently lost my dear beautiful mum in January after 12 long years with vascular dementia..the last year was very horrific..as mum was deemed end of life in april 2018..i suffered from anticipation grief for so so long..did mum took her final breath in January this year..as far a deaths go mums was peaceful once sygrine driver was in place..all off us plus grandchildren were with her and we sang patsy cline... i wrote the eulogy for mum and amazed myself that i was able to read it..x i have been off work for 4 months and resumed this week as i feel i need to get back to normal..however the pain i have in my heart is constant and i miss mum so so much..i also feel lonely and sad..yet i have got an amazing large family!!..i thought naively as i grieve for mum so much whilst she was alive..as wouldnt be this bad....my mum was a huge factor in my life and she was also my best friend!!..x