Thank you, seriously. I was feeling so down & your replies have helped immensely. Sorry, but too many to respond individually, but yes, I feel a club should be started ?.
What gets me most is he can be very generous & kind, came over a couple of years ago & spent a week helping me decorate. He has also paid for me to go on holiday with his family the last 2 years, which was wonderful, particularly getting v close to my niece, who I still ‘talk to’, (message) most days.
What I notice is that he helps in the way that is easiest for him, usually financially. When he did visit he couldn’t bear being in the home for more than 30 minutes.
Anyway, latest is, dad has just told me he didn’t wear a mask at all while out. He forgot. So 2 bus trips, a haircut, visit to cobblers & to Boyes & no mask. I’ve tried to drum it into him & he keeps masks by the front door, don’t know what else I can do, though I have suggested he puts one in a sealed bag in his coat pocket. He won’t remember though.
Re my unutterably miserable life, that’s mainly down to caring for my daughter. She has her own place but moved back to mine ‘temporarily ‘ over 12 months ago. She has completely taken over & each day is set out for me according to her needs.
Mam died almost a year ago. When she went to hospital, then died, the last thing on my mind was my garden. It is now so overgrown I don’t know where to start. In the first week of lockdown, when roads were empty, my beloved cat, the only thing that made me smile & gave me comfort, strayed onto a road & was killed.
2 months ago my boiler broke down, no heating or hot water. For reasons too complicated to go into I can’t get it fixed while daughter is here.
A month ago my washer/dryer broke down, the above applies. My days are taken up with caring but I can’t catch up on the other stuff that needs doing. It’s just too much.
Sorry, problems re my daughter really belong elsewhere, it’s just all so mixed up. Dad getting so bad now, especially at this time, is just the final straw. I’m not sure how to keep him safe? And it’s all down to me, no friends or family to help.
Sorry,feeling particularly sorry for myself at the moment.
But thanks again for the replies, it really does help.
Take care all
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