Not much more to say Jane accept that I am sorry that your mum passed, but pleased that it was peaceful while she slept. I am sure she was so very pleased to be with you all when it was time for her to go. This has not been an easy time for you and your family but I pray for strength for you to get through the next few days.
Thinking about you.
Dear Jane, I'm so sorry to hear of your mum's passing but so pleased she had a peaceful end surrounded by love. Wishing you comfort in knowing you and your family made her last days very special and hope the happy memories will provide solace in your sadness.
You and your family have done a wonderful thing for your dear Mum. In the sorrow of her passing, please take time to appreciate that she had her wish - to go with her family and her pets around her. To go in your sleep is the best way - be glad of that too. Your sadness will be immense but at least you have the comfort of knowing she is at peace now.
Take care of yourself and the girls.
Warm and caring thoughts are winging their way to you.
I have been following your posts and found them so incredibly moving.
Sending you and your family sincere condolences at this very sad time.
No-one could wish for a more peaceful passing than what you provided for your precious mum, how proud she must have been to have such a very special, caring daughter as you to love and care for her, when she needed you the most.
You have my greatest respect Jane. Please take care and look after yourself.
I have followed your posts and I am so sorry for your loss and grief.Much comfort will come from the knowledge that your mum got her wish and came home. Jane, I admire you so much for your courage love and devotion. You will be in my thoughts. Take care. Taffy
I have been trying to post for the last few days but either havnt had the time or have been too upset or distracted to write, mum died on sunday night at 11.15pm although officially she was declared by the doctor after 12 that night so her certificated date of death is 30th April 2007.
I had been out for a couple of hours as Alice had recieved an award for her archery at a local charity award ceremony, Malcolm had been with mum whilst I was out they had been watching snooker together! I returned home at about 9.45pm and came in and went straight to the loo, Stan, Malcolms father had a brief chat with mum and held her hand, he left her as I returned to her room, ~I noticed he breathing was quite bubbly as it had been whilst she was in hospital, I made her comfy and sat her a bit more upright, then went to relax in the sitting room as I felt I needed to be on my own, i had spent a difficult night with her the night before as se was very unsettled and nothing I cold do seemed to help her, I felt that being with her yet unable to make her comfortable and relaxed was frustrating for mum as well as myself as she relied on me for evrytng and I was in this case unable to do what she needed. At about five past elemen I went to the bathroom and washed ect, as I came out Malcolm stepped out of mums room saying that she was fast asleep, I went into the room and immediately realised something was different, I knew she had gone and checked her breathing, I called to malcolm saying she had gone, he came back from the kitchen and said that he had seen her breathing, it became obvious that mum had passed away as Malcolm came out of the room and I went into it, she was still very warm, her mouth and eyes were open, I closed her eyes but they remained slightly open, then I asked Malcolm to fetch his father who lives over the road, Stan came in and looked at mum, he confirmed what I already knew, that she had passed away, but was confused that her eyes were closed, I explained that I had closed them. He sat with me for a short while one each side of her bed, the dogs laid on the floor. I called the doctor after about 10 minutes, then called myh cousin Angela, we chatted for a while then said goodbye, almost immediatley the doctor rang, he needed directions, I gave these and he arrived within 5 minutes, he checked mums pulse and eyes and agreed that she had died, he explained that because her GP had not told the after hours service that she was expected to die the coroner and police would have to be involved but assured me that she would be able to remain with us till the morning, he phoned the police and an officer arrived within about 5 minutes, he came in and I helped him to examine mums body to ensure she had not obvious wounds or injuries, then I had to give him information to fill in a form, he then explained that mum would hav e to be taken straight away to the local hospital, I was very upset because I wanted her to stay till the morning, I sat with her for about 1/2 to 3/4 of an hour till the duty undertakers arrived, they asked if I wanted to stay whilst they dealt with mum and I thought I did till they told me they had to put her into a white plastic body bag, I knew I could not bear to see this so went out of the room, Bertie mums dog was lying on the chair next to her bed, he wouldnt move and I had to pick him up and carry him out of the room, within a few minutes mum had been taken away, the undertakers had even left the door open, I suddenly felt very empty and alone.
today all the children came home, the girls were here yesterday but Jim had a birthday party at his dads, he was 10 today, I picked him and Ed up at 12.30 and we then went to watch Alice play in her Samba band, it was a nice afternoon, I feel I want to be with the children, today I went into a shop with Wendy, it was quite busy and after a while I felt breathless, as if I couldnt breathe deeply, I have felt this occasionaly over the last few days and I know its a panic attack and I have been able to get through them by breathing slowly and moving out of the situation, I'm scared that after the funeral Im going to be so lonely, my family will have gone back home, and the kids will be at their fathers, I dont like being on my own for long periods, although the dogs and cat will be good company. Whilst shopping today I saw several elderly people in wheelchairs (as mum was) I felt a sudden sense of lose and aloneness a cold chill throughout my body, its very strange and moving.
I have asked the childrens father if they can stay untill weds morning, the day after the funeral, then go to his house for the remainder of the week, I dont think he was very happy abut this but coulodnt realy say anything.
Very tired now, cat is asleep on me!! thanks for listening, J x