That has been the whole theme of today. What day is it? I should think the question has been asked at least 50 times. Normally I can handle it but today seems different. I just wonder at what stage is this lovely husband of mine. He struggles to walk around - looking for 'what' room, this morning he asked if we were married!!!!! I said yes for 35 years and he said he could not remember so I am now hunting for wedding photos. He looks dreadful - I wish I could find those lovely bits of him which I so admired and adored. Those lovely parts of him which I related to only a few weeks ago - now seem to have vanished. Oh dear what a dreadful disease; I know I have to cope but the long haul seems so hard to handle. Sorry to let rip -- up until now I have been the strong partner who has said we will handle this whatever (on the outside at least)! We are off to a workshop tomorrow - - 'Exploring Dementia' - perhaps that will make me feel better. Best wishes to all Beckyjan.