My husband of 40 years had the dreader Illness and I am at my wits end. We are on an extended (supposedly happy) long holiday but I am finding it so hard to cope. I try and explain to him the frustration of repeating every single plan over and over again. He nods and then we are back on what I think is an even keel only to go out with friends for him to be unpleasant and nasty. I try not to anger him but there are people In The company who don't know is that well and must think I am such a drip to agree with everything he says. Thus just prevents an embarrassing argument which then makes everyone uncomfortable. I told him tonight that I will fly back to the UK in two days time but he just acts as if he doesn't care. Maybe he will cope without me or am I being cruel by abandoning him....we have no children and I have no brothers or sisters to advise me. The closest friends that we have now dislike him so much because of the way he talks to me although he thinks they still love him. We are both just 70 and I can't think of years ahead living like this. Am I being a coward?