Hi
@blackmortimer. I’ve tried to do all the “right” things this morning - go for a walk, make a list of jobs and then visit the home trying to sort a pair of slippers issue ( they’re too big but staff are confused about whether that’s true!).
Yes we hear that our love ones are ok but that doesn’t give us an idea on a typical day. I’d like to know what it’s like from the moment Bridget gets up to when she goes to bed. I’m going to ask and make a nuisance of myself. We pay enough!
Ive tried LOD but can’t get into it yet as I question the acting and plot compared to the first LOD. Like you I feel unable to look at anything on TV that we watched together so it’s mainly Netflix or Amazon for me. Bridget couldn’t follow story lines and lost her ability to appreciate humour. Typical in dementia.
I cried buckets last night. It appears from nowhere and I’m questioning all the time why is it I cry? Is it for me (am I being self indulgent, loneliness, my grief) or for Bridget
( her decline and possible unhappiness, although do dementia sufferers have our emotions?) or for us both ( loss of the future, never a couple any more) ? I go round and round trying to make sense of it. Why us and why me and why Bridget?
I talk to people who ask after Bridget and me and I know they mean well but no one can ever get inside where I am and really know what it’s like. And that singles me out and makes me feel alone.
Good to hear from you and thinking of all my fellow posters today
Peter