I've come to the same conclusion, Peter. I think I've come to terms with the present and that Margaret is in a place where she's being looked after batter than I ever could. I rang them yesterday to see how she was and they told me that she was on good form and interacting well with everyone. They said that when she's like that she can be the best of company and good company. At other times, when she's in a 'grumpy' mood they know to keep their distance. I don't know whether it's the same with all forms of dementia, but with lewy body certainly it seems that mood swings are part of the disease making care difficult. The thing about the nursing home is that they've seen it all before and can deal with it without taking it personally.Anyway, hope that helps. Beautiful day out there today. Comfy slippers coming for Bridget today so I’ll deliver those later. She gave me a long wave yesterday when she saw me through the window. Both makes me happy and sad.
A scrap of comfort is that there is no way I could handle her now any better than the home. They have everything she requires and are on top of all her wants and needs. Who knows what her condition would have been like if she’d had stayed here for any longer. Probably hospital for her and maybe me as well.
God bless you all and pray today finds some peace for you, Peter
So., I've come to terms with the present. As to the past, like you I'm subject to flashbacks so thanks for the protocol, I'll give it a go. I must say I can empathise with your reaction to finding a recording of Bridget's voice. I've not had anything quite so shattering, but from time to time I come across pieces of writing that Margaret has done over the years and they tend to break me up - I remember her reading them to me, asking me to edit them, print them off and so on. Her writing is so good, so vivid often hilariously funny, sometimes deeply thoughtful and profound. It's the very core of her and reminds me why I love her and how things were before dementia and her journey into that distant land where I can't go. At least I can talk about it all, so that must be something, I suppose.
Thabks to you and all the others on this site who are helping me through it all.