I'm really struggling with grief even though mum is still with us. She is now in a nursing home and I visit regularly but I miss her. I miss being able to pick up the phone and hearing her voice on a daily basis. I miss being able to discuss things with her. I miss having a laugh with her. I hang on desperately to the very rare moments that I feel I have mum back but the overwhelming feeling of loss whilst someone is still here is unbearable.