Oh how I wish I too could have my lovely mum back and share again the happy and special times we shared before she succumbed to this awful disease. I am lucky that my mum is still reasonably mobile and not confined to bed in a NH yet. Her health is deteriorating both mentally and physically so quickly and it is so distressing to visit her in the care home and all she says is 'I want to die, I can't live like this any longer'. She knows that something is not right mentally but does not understand why and what is happening to her. She gets so upset and frustrated that she cannot do things for herself now and is dependent on me and the carers for all her needs. I don't know whether to try and explain it all to her or just let nature take its course and just keep reassuring her that we all love her and try and cope as best we, as a family, can with the 'loss' of mum, grannie and great grannie. I sometimes wish she would just slip away peacefully and won't have to deteriorate to the point that she will not know us and be confined to bed. I have been thinking about moving her into a home with more nursing care but at this stage feel that a move could upset her even more and cause her more confusion. Wouldn't it be lovely if I could walk in to see her smile again and tell me she loves me and understands why she now needs the special 24 hour care. I suppose miracles can happen!! Just hang on to the lovely memories and try and be a little thankful that mum is still with us. Xx