Dad died on April 1st after 7 years of AD actually of bowel cancer we couldnt really diagnose properly or treat him for except for giving him morphine in the last weeks to keep him comfortable
after feeling very calm but very depressed and numb for days I was crying on the bus home tonight - it was like i was thawing out
Being on top of a double decker bus there isnt anywhere to run when you start to think of sad things
After one of my visits last year long after Dad had lost language except for the odd word (that would amaze us all!) my brother dropped me at the station we took Dad for the ride
When we got onto the platform assuming Dad didnt realise what was happening and just for something to say I said casually 'I'm getting the train back to London now Dad'
He looked as tho he had been punched in the stomach and his eyes filled with tears and he said 'why'
At the time it was agony to get on the train and leave him there with my brother
On the top of the bus tonightI just wanted to find my Dad and hug him but now I cant because he's gone
Everything like this that you need to find them and be with them and you cant
its so painful and hard to believe it's real and that you'll never see them ever again- it won't sink in
after feeling very calm but very depressed and numb for days I was crying on the bus home tonight - it was like i was thawing out
Being on top of a double decker bus there isnt anywhere to run when you start to think of sad things
After one of my visits last year long after Dad had lost language except for the odd word (that would amaze us all!) my brother dropped me at the station we took Dad for the ride
When we got onto the platform assuming Dad didnt realise what was happening and just for something to say I said casually 'I'm getting the train back to London now Dad'
He looked as tho he had been punched in the stomach and his eyes filled with tears and he said 'why'
At the time it was agony to get on the train and leave him there with my brother
On the top of the bus tonightI just wanted to find my Dad and hug him but now I cant because he's gone
Everything like this that you need to find them and be with them and you cant
its so painful and hard to believe it's real and that you'll never see them ever again- it won't sink in