The routine of work will be so good for you, it will stop you drifting, it`s a form of discipline. It will help you through the coming months.
Strange you should say that as your right about that drifting. My mind thoughts are really stuck in the past form when Anthony was at the age of 14 years I started working full time. I can get so lost in my past with Anthony that it can drive me crazy have some wired dreams. It’s so good to know I have something to look forward to an obligation to get up out of bed , To bring me out of my thoughts.
I am still on a hypo mood, am eating better. I have to be have to be careful with this hypo mood as when my sciatica starts hurting in my foot I know I am doing too much. But its helping me balances my weight not loss any more weight. I don’t work Mondays, so shall take it easy just do some odds ends that I need to sort out.
I had a dream of mum the other night, then at work when customers had all gone shop was quite it hit me that mum was dead, I finally felt like I could cry so I don’t feel so Mix up with who I am crying for mum or Anthony . Anthony feels my tear ducks at lot, I quite can’t really let go to cry deeply like I did when my father died its just so totally different feeling.
Ha but I have all you lot to keep me balance out, work keep me grounded . My sleep patten does give me good 5 hours sleep, even thought " lay in " is a thing of the pass as I wake around 8pm now . Not to bad , if I try sleep more I just end up dreaming really vividly, compared to how I don't in the 5 hours sleep I get . I now do not even need cap naps like I did druing the day when mum was alive .
(((hugs to all )))))