I brought my Mum home from the CH for Easter Sunday today and we had a lovely lunch, snooze on the sofa and general chat. She has Alzheimer's and she's been in the CH since December. She kept asking why she went to the CH in the first place and whether she'll be there forever. She said her life's over now and asked not to go back. She cried so much when I took her back and kept cuddling me and telling me how much she loves me and kissing me. It is heartbreaking but I keep reminding myself of all the abuse I suffered for years and how much the caring affected my mental health in order to keep strong. Now the abuse has stopped which I presume is an effect of the medication she's on and she actually seems so much better but I still feel so guilty and in a confused muddle as to her memory loss, particularly as most of the other residents are much more advanced than she is. I know there are no clear-cut answers but any thoughts from anyone out there would be a source of strength and help. Thanks, x