What a revelation its been reading your postings, and thank you, I realise now that Im not abnormal, selfish etc to have the terrible feelings of frustration that I have in caring for my mom who has AD. We have never had a good relationship, she was a terrible mother, my two brothers have disasociated themselves from her many years ago, and Im the one left to deal with the daily crises that we lurch through,rather resentfully.Your postings have made me laugh , and cry. but mostly feel reassured that its OK to feel the way I do.Your honesty is refreshing .