No, it's isn't awful for you to hope William won't fight so hard. It's a hard, hard thing to watch and I know you simply want it to be peaceful for William. Thinking of you.
I came to the nursing home this morning as I have a researcher coming to the house this afternoon to do two hours of memory /cognitive function tests on me as part of a three year study on the effects of stress on dementia carers.
I got here just before they phoned me to tell me that William is pretty unwell again. He's quite congested, very tired and too weak to be out of bed.
He looks so exhausted, poor love. And so terribly thin and weak. Is it awful to say I hope he doesn't fight too hard this time? :'(
Thanks all. I was going to go back in this evening - but I found I was so tired after the tests, I just have done nothing! I'm due to work in the morning, and will go after that, unless I hear from the nursing home in the meantime.
He is peaceful. He is comfortable. But the nursing director had left word to send me up to her when I arrived for a chat. She said she thinks William is just starting to slip away. He has that faraway look. And he isn't "ill " - no infection or anything like that. Just terribly weak, and looks like he's ready to go. I honestly hope it doesn't go on for weeks.
He is peaceful. He is comfortable. But the nursing director had left word to send me up to her when I arrived for a chat. She said she thinks William is just starting to slip away. He has that faraway look. And he isn't "ill " - no infection or anything like that. Just terribly weak, and looks like he's ready to go. I honestly hope it doesn't go on for weeks.