Monday (Bank Holiday) 25th May.
Times they are a-changing indeed. Over the weekend there were two TV programmes which seem to have fundamentally either changed Paulines condition or were onTV, by coincidence, when the sudden changing has happened. They were ‘Alone in Lock Down,’ and an old American documentary looking a Alzheimer’s research cure or treatments, both of which sh wanted to watch and neither of them watch all the way through as, “ rubbish.” Her words not mine but they did upset her as I had expected and warned her.
An example of the sharp changes has been this morning which sums up a number of similar outbursts during the last few days when, after rising making her a cup of tea and us having breakfast, Pauline fills the washing machine ready for a wash, a task I know better than to interfere with, and so I remained in the living room watching the news as usual.
Several minutes passed and suddenly she is shouting me and I dashed into the kitchen to find she had, successfully, changed the bin bag and tried to knot the full one for the outside bin. The shouting was about me never helping and things (?) not working properly and her doing everything. A few calming words and after I put the bin bag out I came in to find her just standing watching the washing machine in a slack jawed trance and then a lightning change to more anger about things not working and the laundry pods being useless and the place filthy. I retreated to the living room and then for an hour and a half she jut stood in the kitchen watching the washing machine go round and round with what my old dad would have described as a “Gormless” look on her face. Several times I tried to get her to sit down but she refused as she did my offers of help. Eventually the washing was on the line and she sat in the living room drinking a cup of tea as I had told her I wanted to clean the “filthy” kitchen floor. So she had to move out. This is how it has been, anger, stubbornness and looking and acting just lost over and again and it worries me no end but clearly nothing of a medical consequence needing a doctor or anything, nor needing extra help, just yet another change.