I’m now into my 7th year of living with a man I don’t like but can’t leave because he has Alzheimer’s. Diagnosed at 50 years old I feel my own life is ebbing away waiting for him to go into care or die. I’d always meant to divorce him, once my children were old enough to accept it, but the Alzheimer’s diagnosis came first and meant it seemed too cruel to just leave him to fend for himself so I stayed. He’s not unpleasant to me, but just does absolutely nothing, and has pretty much been like that since his diagnosis. He made no attempt to slow its progress, embracing new activities, a better diet, mental stimulation etc, which really angered me. In fairness he probably is now incapable of doing anything but it annoys me he made no attempt to fight it, or reinvent himself into doing useful jobs around the house. He doesn’t wash, brush his teeth, change his clothes (rarely) and I don’t feel I really care enough to make him do it. I moved out the main bed room years ago and now don't go in any rooms he’s in. I had gone on holiday with my adult age children a few years ago but now can’t go as it’s impossible to leave the area in case he gets lost and needs collection. Everything about him annoys me and as he steals away my opportunities to enjoy life I feel more and more resentment towards him. I hate the fact he’s turned me into a nasty person and short of finding an extraordinary amount of money to put him into care (he wants to stay at home) I don’t know what to do. He's only 60 years old, in good health and consequently could live many more years. He’s stopped drinking anything other than the one beer I give him with his evening meal. I do give him glasses of squash & water alongside his lunch, breakfast etc but he leaves them untouched. He’d previously drank the contents of the wine cellar and would sneak bottles of beer to drink in secret but I now hide them. I am however wondering if I should just let him drink as much alcohol as he wants which alongside all the chocolates/sweets he buys at the local shop will speed up his demise. Am I going to be stuck like this for ever, is it wrong, and does anybody else feel the same?